After I purged, in walks my mom. My eyes are blood shot, but I was washing the dishes. I dont want her to notice of course she doesnt. I ate some ice cream before she came home. Mom checks the freezer to let me know the lid isnt on ice cream right. To my delight, of course she noticed. Mom: Who ate ice cream.. Anavida: Oh I did. In walks B.
B: Anavida, what did you eat today? Anavida: Oh umm, some steamed veggies, turkey.. Some ice cream. B: Anavida thats where you fucked up. Did you workout today? Anavida;No, not yet. B: You need to tone up your thighs. Mom starts busting out lunges. Mom: I havent eaten all day. Thats great mom. Thats great. B: you know that dad wants you to be skinny. Anavida: yeah I know.
This literally happened. I have mixed feelings. I usually feel bad about myself, but ive decided to change my thinking. They want for me what I want for myself. I should be happy my family has such expectations. I should show them I can be strong and skinny. I need a tougher skin so ive been told. I believe it. My moms slight competition towards me is a blessing in disguise. I will win. I will be skinny. I will prove to them how discplined I truly am. The most important thing in mi familia is to look your best, be skinny because one person represents all of us.
Im rebelious. But in this Ive decided to give in. For once I will have their approval and perhaps their envy.. Bye guys going out to sweat it out <3The pressure to be thin should be MOTIVATION. Society wasnt wrong for once.